Do you ever hit a wall and think, ‘what the hell am I doing with my life’?
Lately this thought has been popping into my head more than it has in years. As you might remember, I decided to put designing on hold in January after a tough few months. It was much needed and I felt so alive and motivated in January, that was likely also due to the start of a new year in general. I had fully planned on diving back in head first in February, but I just couldn’t get myself motivated.
I simply wasn’t ready and for the first time in a long time, I’m listening to my heart instead of my brain. I’ve always craved a career that left me feeling satisfied and creatively fulfilled, but what do you happen when the career that once brought you that no longer does?
It made me wonder if that part (designing) of my life was done. Am I suppose to be moving onto the next thing? And if so, what is that next thing?
It’s a state of mind that has left me feeling a little lost, and also incredibly more free and optimistic. It’s allowed me to take a step back and think about what I really want to do, which is a bit terrifying. It’s like I’m looking around and I can do anything I set my mind to, I just don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing.
I always thought I knew what I wanted to do, but I’ve realized as I grow, my goals and passions have also changed and shifted. That’s not a bad thing at all, but it’s definitely a funny place to be in. For once I think I’m going to try and embrace it, slow my pace to see what comes naturally.
Have you ever hit this wall or felt this way? How do you deal with the uncertainty and change?